In order to perform, there are so many things you have to let go of, and leave at the door. Self doubt being the main thing.
You can't perform, in any fashion, or quality... if you doubt that you can do it.
At the beginning of this whole expedition, I had an unwavering self-confidence. Whether or not I had (or have) the abilities to carry off a performance is irrelevant. William Hung taught us that.
I don't want to perform to be a laughing stock obviously. Nobody does. Performers give everything they have and then some to an audience... as is obvious from the lack of comments on this site, not everyone has the balls to open their mouth and say something.
I didnt't manage to open my mouth tonite, but I have a better understanding of why. But right now, I need to go to bed.
Hehehe... Chris drove me home tonite, he got me in two minutes earlier than Shawn did *giggles*.....11:05....
Timmy's and donuts in hand.... ahhhhhhhhh............... sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttt...........................
No one said this would ever be easy! Its all baout trying and having a good time doing so honey! You said it right, leave your self doubt at the door. There is no room for second guessing who you are and why your doing it at this point. You have what it takes to make anything happen, so go with it and run.
Well I warned you, I'm ready to say what's on my mind! Maybe it helps to smoke a few but that's where my creative mind comes from. We do what we have to get keep our shit together and our sanity intact. *winks*